Of being approximately 50 kg

do u think ur fat or people kept telling at your face "wey, ko dh gemuk la wei", n dalam hati ur "suka ati aku la wey, apa yg ko susah???".. jezzz.. chebok je.. but when u look at your current picture, u somehow notice how much u have gain weight n how ugly u look with all those double chin n buncitness which seems to appear more obviously.. shit la weyh!! =.=" I AM FAT. damn. then, u'll stop eatin nasi like for a few days, then u'll realized 'no nasi no life' n u'll eat double the intake of nasi. n u'll get stress all over again. SHIT. hilang 0.5 kg, naik 2 kg. siot betol.

i freakin realized i was FAT because a picture of me was taken during the semester break. i FREAKED out. *gasppp* i didn't know the exact weight at that time since i do not have a weight scale in my house; but the picture was like a slap to my face. *slap* "wake up! ur a fatso! look at dat (referring to the picture)! So UGLY la weyh!" i dont think any guys will look at me again, since even me myself cant stand looking at it.

i decided i shall take control of this issue, not them taking over me. no freaking way. *ambik bantal, n belasah it cukup-cukup* this is for stress relieving purposes. firstly, org cakap nasi punca utama kita gemok.so, i decided i was going to see how long i was going to survive without nasi. less than 24 hour. srsly. pagi x makan nasi, ptg terus mengidam. damn. secondly, org cakap kenelah exercise at least 3 kali seminggu. ptg tu exercise, lepas tu sindrom malas menguasai diri. pemalas nk exercise. i hate jogging! its too tiring, tido n on9ing lg best. i rasa 3 bulan di merbok i jogging 2 kali je. thirdly, org cakap x bleh makan lepas maghrib, around eight. yeah rite. im used to makan malam n makan tgh malam. pkl 10 nk mkn, pkl 12 pown nk mkn. damn.

so, it was a bit hopeless. i cant live without nasi n i dont exercise. how la wey? how to lose that extra kgsss.. i never believed in pil2 kurus nie.. kenapa ada susu appeton weight gain but no susu appeton lose weight?? (used to drink that in primary school, which i throw in the sink when my dad's not lookin, naughty2) i dont want to be aneroxic, neither do i want to be bullimic. @____@

i am soo going to die. as a fat ugly person.

but there is always a 'light at the end of the tunnel'

i am not going to give up. no way. die excess fat. DIE!! so, i decided to change apa 'org cakap' to apa 'iszati cakap'. my own resolution to my own problem. org cakap hindarkan nasi, iszati ckp kurangkan nasi. ok. it's like this. nasi is karbohidrat n when it is not used it'll turn to fat. its purpose is to provide us with energy. since im a lazybone at exercising, the karbo will turn to fat. so, i started to eat only 1/3 of my usual consumption of nasi. its not that hard actually. ambik nasi spt biasa, divide it into 3, buang 2 bhgn n eat only 1 bhgn. oh, i took 2 lauk to make an illusion that my plate is full, chewah, im tipuing my brain. hohoho. org cakap kene exercise 3 kali seminggu, iszati ckp x yah exercise pown x pe. hahaha. iszati exercise?? me?? mua?? i hate joggin, i hate netball, i hate basketball and the list goes on.. except for taekwondo (the reason bdn x naik time secondary school). cume iszati elakkan jogging di atas 'katil' lepas makan. stop! org cakap x leh mkn after 8pm, iszati cakap 'boleh!! head on!!' but not makanan berat.. being used to mkn nasi lemak masria tiap mlm2, this was a challenge to me. shit la wei!! find benda yg lbh ringan ie roti or biskut. kalo u cnt stop the urge to eat nasi lemak, eat 1/3 of it only.

as a result, i lost approximately 3 kg selama approximately 1 month.. ~wheeeeee.. a reason to celebrate kn?? ;) bkn la i tukar jd selawa aishrawai rai but still.. i feel good at myslef n dat is important to me. not what other ppl think.

this issue is subjective. n i feel that i need to take control of my life. n i did. hooray for me!!

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naik 0.5 kg but what the heck la..
wish could do the same about my study. gtg study global. wish me luck. adios.