All fucked up

Being emotional right now, I wonder how can someone survive without siblings? Without brothers and sisters? Whats more important, how can they live? Don't they get lonely? Don't they wish they have brother and sister too?

I know they can be annoying at times (many countless times) but they are your flesh and blood. No matter what happens, you are still stuck together.

I am just glad and happy I have 2 little sister and brother. 2 sister who makes me happy and 2 brother who makes me sigh ;p hehe


okay, I' m done.

XD

What had I become??

the once carefree person, never give a damn of what people say about her have become self-concious boring lame bitch. wtf. the truth is, i have soo many idea of what to write in my blog. But i was worried whether will it be a brilliant post or a funny post or some cool post. ****la.
i want to be myself again. the carefree person.

i'll do my best. to write straight from the heart ;)
right from this second!!

When loneliness creeps

for the first time, i feel a little bit lonely. hurm. i need someone to talk to. someone who is willing to hear my stupidity, my rants.. someone who is not going to judge me. someone who will not say: what have you done?; i can't believe u had done dat?; why haven't you thought it more carefully before u do it? etc. someone who will always be there for me, no matter what i've done, say.. someone to help me calm down when i feel like doing stupid stuff. someone to help me find my courage when i have none left. someone to make me cheerful again when i'm gloomy like hell. i dont want some selfish idiot who proclaimed to be there for me, be my shoulder, bla bla bla. eat dung la u. i want someone to tell me, as a human you make mistake, as long as you regret what you had done and never do it again, everything will be alright.

i need my sister. but right now, she's giving all out for her SPM. i need u. come home fast. and i will be just fine. she's the only person in the entire world who understands me, nvr judge me, forgive me for my stupidity, my naiveness, my blurness.. she is my sister, my best friend, my courage, my everything...

when will the damn bloody SPM ends.

Seven Days

Activities that i've done for the last few days:

• bangun tido time tengahari. around 12.30pm
• mandi
  
• makan brunch
• online: watched Over the Rainbow and Hana Kimi, facebooking, blogging, googling etc
• tido at around 3-5 am

okay that is ALL. the activity that i have done.
except for one day where i went for a jog in Taman Aman with my parents. ahaha. it was more of a walk. i was afraid my muscle leg will cram because it was damn rusted. ahaha. at 7 am nevertheless but guess what, after the jogging i went for nasi lemak. ahaha.

d! aku jog!!

:D

Aiman jadi gangster *gasp*

A few days ago was Hari Kanak-kanak Sedunia. I remembered the days in primary school, the best part of the day was the perfomance by the 'kanak-kanak'. It all started when,

idris: mama! mama! aiman jadi gangster!!
mama: ?? (aiman jd gangster? kat sekolah rendah pown ada gang2 ke?)
idris: aiman berlakon ngan nyanyi jadi gangster. pakai kot
pengawas. die nyanyi lagu along.

mama: aiman berlakon jadi gangster?
aiman: haah
mama: kenapa tak bgtau mama?
aiman: mama tak tanye pown

(-_-!!)

is it me, or boys are always like that. if it wasn't for my
report-kat-mama-pasal-aiman idris, we would not know that he had acted and sing onstage! when asked, how's school, it'll always be "macam biasa". hehe. mcm mane rupenye aiman berlakon and menari eh.. i wonder *wondering*

Adibah dearest

Gud Luck and All the Best
for your SPM

i noe u worked for it, waking up 4am every day (i know because i was the one calling her to wake her up). remember, it doesnt matter how much you get but how hard you work for it.

;)

jiayou!!
ganbatte!!
aja aja fightin!!

Congratulation

to enan yusof
for getting 5 A's

I am craving for

Fany Hwan Hee

he is soo yummiciously hot.
*drools*

UPSR result is out tomorrow

i wish the best of luck to my little brother. he is going to take his UPSR result tomorrow. i hope he gets straight A's. i will be there with him to share that moment, he is my annoying pesky little brother after all.

;0

haha. im using the family's computer, whick explain the not so decent picture of him. it was the only picture available. he doesnt read my blog for sure.

BEST OF LUCK

AIMAN YUSOF

:')

Tomorrow

Because the words “lets end it” was not said
Because the last step forward was not taken
It seems we have never have love
Though it feels like death everything
My heart does not rest even for one day
I never stop regretting even for one time
Can you see my tears
Can you hear my sigh
Though I swallow and swallow again, it overflows
When will you be turning to around to see this image of me
Tomorrow Tomorrow
Will my feelings be able to touch you
Those words I still haven’t said
Those words my heart wrote and sent out to you
That I love you and for you to come to me
Tomorrow Tomorrow
If only you could come to my side
It doesn’t matter if I shed tears of sorrow
It doesn’t matter if I sigh from continuous regret
I will only wait for you

You’ll turn around and look at me someday
You’ll acknowledge my love
If I want and want again it will happen
If not tomorrow then at least the day after tomorrow
Tomorrow Tomorrow
Will my feelings be able to touch you
Those words I still haven’t said
Those words my heart wrote and sent out to you
That I love you and for you to come to me
Tomorrow Tomorrow
If only you could come to my side
It doesn’t matter if I shed tears of sorrow
It doesn’t matter if I sigh from continuous regret
I will only wait for you
Even if it’s the tenth tomorrow
Also even if it’s the first tomorrow
Because I only love you

Fish Spa is fun. Seriously.

malas nk tulis pjg2. reasons to have a try at fish spa.
1) if u have nvr done it. go for it. try somethin new.
2) its fun. seriously. it was ticklish at first n i didnt to put my feet inside. but once u get used to it, u x nk kuarkn kaki.
3) dats all yo.. :D

SO, go for a fish spa
;)

Relax, Take It Easy

Took a ride to the end of the line
Where no one ever goes.
Ended up on a broken train with nobody I know.
But the pain and the longing's the same.
When you're dying
Now I’m lost and I’m screaming for help alone.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I'm scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax
(Love) There is an answer to the darkest times.
It’s clear we don’t understand it, but the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you.
I believe that we’re in this together.
Don’t scream – there are so many roads left.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I'm scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
(Relax)
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax
Relax

it started when d started babbling about bungkus and pocong. i mean wtf la. i have never let fear take control of me. the only thing i shud fear is god. but *bisik* it kinda scared me. =.=" i hate this. being scared of something that i shud nvr be scared. diorg makhluk tuhan mcm kite jgk. so why? oh why?

i decided no matter what happens, happen la.. i studied kt blk tv until the wee hour.. it's 3.30 am n still x isyaq lg. sbnrnye takut nk g surau. aiseyh. owh, im here with 3 really nice seniors.

wtf la. aishh..

so i studied till 4. n i was packing my stuff n the seniors were starting to do the same. earlier, i had confessed to her i was scared nk blk sorg2. baru nk bla, she offered to walk me back to m2. yess!

naik tangga (tgk kiri kanan), perjalanan ke bilik (tgk kiri kanan), gosok gigi (tgk kiri kanan). bodohlah. i was expecting to see bungkus. =.="

in the end, i decided to Relax, Take It Easy.

;)

Of being approximately 50 kg

do u think ur fat or people kept telling at your face "wey, ko dh gemuk la wei", n dalam hati ur "suka ati aku la wey, apa yg ko susah???".. jezzz.. chebok je.. but when u look at your current picture, u somehow notice how much u have gain weight n how ugly u look with all those double chin n buncitness which seems to appear more obviously.. shit la weyh!! =.=" I AM FAT. damn. then, u'll stop eatin nasi like for a few days, then u'll realized 'no nasi no life' n u'll eat double the intake of nasi. n u'll get stress all over again. SHIT. hilang 0.5 kg, naik 2 kg. siot betol.

i freakin realized i was FAT because a picture of me was taken during the semester break. i FREAKED out. *gasppp* i didn't know the exact weight at that time since i do not have a weight scale in my house; but the picture was like a slap to my face. *slap* "wake up! ur a fatso! look at dat (referring to the picture)! So UGLY la weyh!" i dont think any guys will look at me again, since even me myself cant stand looking at it.

i decided i shall take control of this issue, not them taking over me. no freaking way. *ambik bantal, n belasah it cukup-cukup* this is for stress relieving purposes. firstly, org cakap nasi punca utama kita gemok.so, i decided i was going to see how long i was going to survive without nasi. less than 24 hour. srsly. pagi x makan nasi, ptg terus mengidam. damn. secondly, org cakap kenelah exercise at least 3 kali seminggu. ptg tu exercise, lepas tu sindrom malas menguasai diri. pemalas nk exercise. i hate jogging! its too tiring, tido n on9ing lg best. i rasa 3 bulan di merbok i jogging 2 kali je. thirdly, org cakap x bleh makan lepas maghrib, around eight. yeah rite. im used to makan malam n makan tgh malam. pkl 10 nk mkn, pkl 12 pown nk mkn. damn.

so, it was a bit hopeless. i cant live without nasi n i dont exercise. how la wey? how to lose that extra kgsss.. i never believed in pil2 kurus nie.. kenapa ada susu appeton weight gain but no susu appeton lose weight?? (used to drink that in primary school, which i throw in the sink when my dad's not lookin, naughty2) i dont want to be aneroxic, neither do i want to be bullimic. @____@

i am soo going to die. as a fat ugly person.

but there is always a 'light at the end of the tunnel'

i am not going to give up. no way. die excess fat. DIE!! so, i decided to change apa 'org cakap' to apa 'iszati cakap'. my own resolution to my own problem. org cakap hindarkan nasi, iszati ckp kurangkan nasi. ok. it's like this. nasi is karbohidrat n when it is not used it'll turn to fat. its purpose is to provide us with energy. since im a lazybone at exercising, the karbo will turn to fat. so, i started to eat only 1/3 of my usual consumption of nasi. its not that hard actually. ambik nasi spt biasa, divide it into 3, buang 2 bhgn n eat only 1 bhgn. oh, i took 2 lauk to make an illusion that my plate is full, chewah, im tipuing my brain. hohoho. org cakap kene exercise 3 kali seminggu, iszati ckp x yah exercise pown x pe. hahaha. iszati exercise?? me?? mua?? i hate joggin, i hate netball, i hate basketball and the list goes on.. except for taekwondo (the reason bdn x naik time secondary school). cume iszati elakkan jogging di atas 'katil' lepas makan. stop! org cakap x leh mkn after 8pm, iszati cakap 'boleh!! head on!!' but not makanan berat.. being used to mkn nasi lemak masria tiap mlm2, this was a challenge to me. shit la wei!! find benda yg lbh ringan ie roti or biskut. kalo u cnt stop the urge to eat nasi lemak, eat 1/3 of it only.

as a result, i lost approximately 3 kg selama approximately 1 month.. ~wheeeeee.. a reason to celebrate kn?? ;) bkn la i tukar jd selawa aishrawai rai but still.. i feel good at myslef n dat is important to me. not what other ppl think.

this issue is subjective. n i feel that i need to take control of my life. n i did. hooray for me!!

;0

naik 0.5 kg but what the heck la..
wish could do the same about my study. gtg study global. wish me luck. adios.